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i'm in love with this song. what a beautiful song it was!

i don't know what kind of feeling it was.
now i'm smiling, i'm blushing and kinda random feeling.
i met this guy just now. well, when i was a baby girl, he was 3 years boy.
we are at the same town. and after years we met each other just now.
WEIRD! just for a short time of meeting he can built a random feeling inside my heart.
see? i'm crazy. now i'm crazy. hahahahaha.
after almost a year i never felt this random feeling, now i'm feeling it!
felt like i'm a Princess Aurora and he's a Prince Phillip.
look, now i'm getting totally crazy because of this random feeling.
it's totally crazy. half of my heart felt this random feeling for my Prince Phillip, and the other heart felt guity feeling for J. mmmmmm.
let's get sleep now!
because night just can bring you feel "GALAU", so better sleep and left it behind.

 

Spicy Thai Suki Soup ala Princess Lieya :')

 

hello, Prince Phillip. i'm your Princess Aurora! :')

i'm really sorry for canceled today's meeting, J.

in my eyes, life totally was crazy. we don't know with whom we will falling in love. posting kali ini bukan cuma pengalaman pribadi. tapi juga pengalaman orang-orang yang ada di sekitar saya. waktu saya sedang jatuh cinta, saya memang benar-benar menjadi orang yang bodoh. buta akan cinta. percaya deh kalau love is blind. dalam harapan kita, kita menginginkan  untuk jatuh cinta dengan seseorang yang sempurna, bukan orang yang kurang sempurna. tapi ternyata perasaan kita yang membuat semuanya menjadi sempurna. ini benar-benar gila, tapi itulah cinta. yaa karena posisi saya sekarang sedang tidak mencintai seseorang, jadi saya bisa berfikir lebih rasional. hahahaha. atau mungkin memang saya sudah merubah segalanya sampai-sampai saya menjadi seseorang yang tidak lemah lagi dalam hal itu. melihat orang-orang yang lemah karena hal itu, saya hanya kasihan. padahal saya pernah ada di posisi mereka. tapi saya belajar dari pengalaman-pengalaman yang saya lalui. menyadari saya sekarang menjadi pribadi yang berbeda. i'm not that easy to falling in love again. but someday, sure i will. menghabiskan waktu untuk menangisi suatu yang berhubungan dengan perasaan atau menjadi wanita yang sok suci dengan berkutat dengan cinta, was not really me anymore. saya bukan boneka yang bisa dipermainkan oleh cinta lagi. hal-hal seperti itu memang indah, tapi justru tidak menunjukkan kedewasaan yang sebenarnya menurut saya. cinta orang-orang di sekitar saya terhadap pasangannya hanya membuat mereka lemah dan cengeng. padahal saya juga pernah berada di posisi mereka.

hey, i had a great time today! thank you so much, Allah (: you're really the best! you make my whole life was really beautiful.
starting from this morning, i finished my real homework as a daughter at home.
i love to make my Mama smile. x)
then yeah, i take care of my only one sister in this world as always.
had a Thai Boxing class and luch with BBQ Chicken Pizza ala Pizza Farm plus O Limau Tea ala Lepak with my Laseta.
as always every monday had a lab class then continue with watching Harry Potter And The Deathly Hallows Part 1 with my #MGT07.
hey, congratulation for Rinaldi Akbar Rangkuti, S.E for the first graduated #MGT07! we proud of you! be succeed!

 

i love coloring my nails.

well, i've been tried some colors and i love to explore it! x)

LUCKY!

i don't know since when but i love talking about food recipes. hahahaha.
i love watching cooking programmee at television.
i love searching on the internet about some recipes i want to try.
i love watching about home interior and read some magazines about it.
i love about interior.
i love about food and making it.
hey, i love about tea too. and i love to explore it in some different ways.
i love culiner! i love my life!
i love movies.
i love books.
i love musics.
i love everything.
i love everything in my life.
i am one of a lucky girl in this world because i love whole of my life.

White Horse by Taylor Swift

this song officially related with my last relationship. ~SI.

MAGNUM MAGNUM MAGNUM!

MAGNUM MAGNUM MAGNUM MAGNUM! everybody i knew was craving for MAGNUM. what the heaven is going on with this kind of ice cream? they're already exist for long time and now everybody has just craved for it. the question is where have you been, people? since the first time it launched and becoming trending topic, i have ever been seen the advertise on television. well, agree with how the way the woman bite the chocolate was make the audience craved for it. so do i for a moment. but i don't really interest with looking for it in almost every place in town. then everybody want it for more since the first time they tried. and here i am, we i just came back to Bandung and taking some time to bought some foods, i found this ice cream.

 

i'm wondering how it's tasted. and tadaaammm! it's really just so-so. doesn't taste  like what i am expested to be. good job for those marketing strategic! really really four thumbs way up for the marketer who makes everybody "LATAH" consuming MAGNUM.

The Difference Between Like And Love

Many people think that there is no difference between like and love but I certainly do believe that there is a difference.

Like and love are two completely different things.

When you like somebody your just getting to know that person and trying to figure out if there is something more between the two of you. 

Like is not as deep as love is, Like is just like making friends. 

You don't know if the two of you are going to grow to be the best of friends or discover that you really don't like that person as much as you thought you would. 

I don't really think that you can lump together like and love because they are so different. 

Its one thing to like a person but its quite another to love that person. 

Don't get me wrong, I mean like is a wonderful thing but when you find love its a spectacular and beautiful thing that two people can share with one another. 

Love will make you do things that you never thought you would do and like will not. 

When you love somebody you love all of them even if some of the things they do drive you crazy. 

Finding love can be difficult and finding to like somebody comes a little bit easier because you know that if you don't like those annoying little habits its easier to get rid of and discover that they are not the one for you.

Love is a different thing because love runs deeper than like. 

Love is more forgiving and more giving than like.

You wouldn't just give anything to somebody you liked, but you would for the person that you love because its more special and precious. 

Like is a precious thing, it just doesn't get put into the same category as love because they are so opposite. 

Liking somebody is just liking somebody but loving somebody means making more sacrifice, being more giving and being a little bit more honest with somebody.

When you like somebody you don't really see a point to being as honest than when you love somebody. 

Like doesn't mean honesty it means friendship and for a lot of people it will always mean just friendship. 

Love is more than just a friendship and its more than just honesty. 

Its about giving, sharing and most of all its about commitment to that one person and nobody else.

Love and like are different the only thing is love goes a lot deeper than like ever will.

by Julie Johnson

~Well, this post specially tribute to my gorgeous best Anita Dwihardini Putri who's been asked the differences between like and love.

Cycling Jogging Boxing

 

my own Spicy Squid Oyster Sauce.

 

this is it the Spicy Squid Oyster Sauce made by me.

everybody can cook :) :) :)

but thank God, you gave me grace cooking talent from my Mama.

Forget about the people from your past. Cause there must have been a good reason why they didn't make it to your future.

official lyric video Ingin Putus Saja by Gamaliel, Audrey and Cantika

my bestest facial care! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

my favorite body care!

presidential visit

for me, he is charismatic and humble. i adore him. so why some people out there refuse his visiting?

Firewok by Katy Perry

i'm just too tired and bored  with love and broken song. and i found this Firework song was really awesome! i love this song from Teenage Dream Album by Katy Perry. really cool soong! don't be shy to show the world who you really are! enjoy the video! xoxo.

my Indian friend, Tina :)

 

today i saw such a television programmee. it's about an Indian family and their tradition.

and they're successfully make me craving for Chapati Bread.

suddenly i remember this girl, named  Tina. she's my KKNM's friend, medical student.

actually, she's a Malaysian but she had Indian's blood.

uuuuh, how i missed you, Tina. so missed our another friend.

but that tv show just reminded me about you.

i missed it when you cooked Indian food for us.

i missed it when you served us as an eater.

i missed it when you taught us how to eat above the banana leaf.

really really missed you and your food :D :D :D

for all natural disasters that hit Indonesia now, let's pray for Indonesia!

flooding in Wasior

earthquake and tsunami in Mentawai island

volcano eruption in Mount Merapi

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let's hold our hands together

 

and......

the switchover

we will never know about anything before it happened.
we will never learn before we got failed.
something happens for their own reasons.
in my age, i do i saw i learn.
life is getting hard in line with the growth.
we are getting older by the time.
oooh Mom, Dad.... you both meant everything in my life.
i'm so sorry for all the wrong thing i've done.
for fall short of.
your good daughter have ever been a bad daughter and now i'm on my own to fix it.
i'm on my way to be such a good girl--good daughter i used to be.
i wish i were still a child without any sins.
lot of of sins within.
i don't know what am i really looking for in my life.
i don't know what i'm believing.
have no plans.
have no directions.
such a little chick which lost the mother.
realizing for all the things i've done is for such a responsibility.
i do responsible for everything in front of my face.
but then, is it all?
i never felt that is just enough.
God, i know by looking back isn't make it any better.
cry or sad for what i've done in the past won't be good at all for me.
we have to move on each time.
the past belongs to past.
i could drop it and won't ever look back.

*just a silly post about my overall feeling. hey, S. been three days you always come into my dream. how are you? it's really good if i had any chance to talk with you. only as a friend. talk and meet as a friend. i do miss you. by attending on my dreams, thank you. hope you're doing just fine. :) :) :) :)

what a dreamlalalalaland!

call me a girl who can't be moved maybe!
uuuuu, i just sometimes can't handle it by myself.
this morning, when i just woke up...
the first feeling i felt is.....i miss him. really really miss him.
he's just say hi in my dream and it's just seemed so real for me.
talked with him on the phone.
that voice..
that words..
all the things in my dream just make me realizing when i wake up that much i really miss him.
i just can't do nothing.
i just can't say the words "i miss you" or "i want to meet you" or extremely "i still have a heart for you".
DARN me! call me just like a jerk! i've been twice had a relationship after with him.
and those relationship only stand for a week! i don't have any feeling for them.
how sad i am. i've been trying so hard to open this heart, but it's still belong to him.
G-G-God! whatever! he's my the one that got away....

me time

it doesn't mean that i'm really alone.
it also doesn't mean that you don't have any friends.
it's really really only me time.
have you ever had a really me time?
doing all the thing you want all alone.
doing something which is you always have a partner within but you do it alone.
I DO!
crazy? insane? abnormal? autism? NOPE.
me time? WHY NOT?

happy birthday my dinamic duo October's princess, Nelly Wulansari (October 2nd, 1988) and Anita Dwihardini Puteri (October 21st, 1989)! :* :* :* :*

*from tea to coffee*

HELP! i'm freaking out!

oooh my God, they really make me kinda crazeeeeeee!
HELP! i'm really freaking out of them now.
downloaded all of their video, collected their photos!
ooooh my God, Gamaliel and Audrey! you both seriously AWEEESOME and ADORABLE!
i really love you both! i'm starting falling in love with your telephone video cover. then found all of your video is totally great too! your voice really hot and sexy! that's great!

think rationally, act elegantly.

@LieyaSunarya jangan GANGGU HUBUNGAN gw, tolong.. please stay away from my life..

AANJJIIINGGGGG LO EMANG.. TAII...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Heh!! Kampret!! Udah gw remove FB, unfollow TWITTER, delete contact ВВМ™ masih Aja lo NGIGAU.. @lieyasunarya urus idup lo sendiri!

Sorry yah, gw gak pernah kasar Di jejaring sosial kalo gak Ada alasannya.. Yang Ini emang gak bisa dimaafin.. Gak punya otak emang lo..

Antep il, ya iya jago, anak menejemen.. RT @iilness: @tbarya parah emg tu org be, klo uda ngjlekin org nyebarinnya lbh gila dri sistem MLM (‾_‾") smw org tau pkonya

dan akarnya adalah.....
kalau saya terlalu bahagia karena Julie Rochili meminta saya untuk invite PIN BBMnya disaat saya sedang membuat artikel 1000 kata tentang dia, lalu saya menulisnya di twitter, apa saya salah?
kalau tiba-tiba pacar anda yang bertanya terlebih dahulu mengenai Julie Rochili dan saya bicara, apa saya juga yang salah?
kalau anda ada masalah sama pacar anda karena hal sepele seperti itu, apa saya juga yang salah?
kalau saya menulis "unfollow, remove and delete. hey dude, you're just like a wo-man. be gentle!" di jejaring sosial, itu hanya sesuatu yang ada dipikiran saya. saya tidak bermaksud menghakimi anda. toh, banyak yang melakukan hal tersebut. hanya saja kalau memang hal tersebut dilakukan oleh wanita, itu adalah hal yang menurut saya masih wajar karena wanita penuh dengan kelabilan. tapi jika dilakukan oleh seorang pria, menurut saya mereka adalah orang-orang yang tidak gentle. dan intinya, saya sama sekali tidak menujukan untuk anda. sekali lagi itu hanya sesuatu yang tiba-tiba terlintas di pikiran saya karena bukan hanya dari pengalaman pribadi, tapi beberapa orang yang berada disekitar saya juga pernah merasakan bahkan melakukan hal yang sama. mengapa anda harus terlalu frontal menulis seperti itu kepada saya?
kesannya saya ada sesuatu dengan anda. bahkan menyukai anda pun tidak pernah terjadi pada diri saya. anda seperti itu hanya menunjukkan rasa ketakutan anda. takut kan? tenang saja, saya tidak akan melakukan hal itu. biar waktu yang berbicara.

kalau pun saya pernah stuck pada seseorang, bukan anda orangnya. bahkan mungkin seisi dunia pun tau kepada siapa saya stuck. sekali lagi bukan anda. jadi jangan pernah terlalu percaya diri karena bahkan saya sedikit pun, sedetik pun tidak punya rasa apa-apa terhadap anda. anda berhak marah mungkin karena kecewa atas apa yang saya lakukan kepada anda di masa lalu. karena saya tau, saya yang salah. saya membiarkan anda berharap tapi bahkan saya bingung bagaimana caranya untuk memberikan penolakan karena banyak hal yang saya pertimbangkan. saya sudah meminta maaf, bukan? karena saya mengakui kesalahan saya.

saya pernah terpancing emosi yang malah menunjukkan ketidakdewasaan saya. saya pernah menangis yang malah menunjukkan kalau saya lemah. tapi itu juga bukan untuk anda.

berfikirlah rasional, teman. anda seharusnya sudah dewasa dan bisa memandang sesuatu itu lebih bijak. berfikirlah dulu sebelum bertindak. lebih baik diam jika anda tidak tau apa-apa dan tidak mengetahui kebenarannya.

kalau saya jadi anda, saya pasti sudah malu. malu atas kekonyolan yang telah saya lakukan. bagaimana bisa saya mencemooh orang lain tanpa saya tau dulu kebenarannya? anda terlalu gegabah. bukan berarti saya tidak gegabah juga. yaa saya gegabah dan salah telah menuliskan apa yang ada di pikiran saya dan sekali lagi tidak ditujukan untuk siapa-siapa.

coba pikirkan buat apa saya mengganggu anda? apa untungnya untuk saya? dan saya pun bukan tipe orang seperti itu.

berhentilah memerankan peran konyol dan menyeret saya masuk ke dalam panggung sandiwara anda. saya tidak punya urusan apa-apa dengan anda. jadi, andalah yang lebih baik menjauh. jangan ganggu hidup saya dan orang-orang yang ada di sekitar saya.

sekarang saya tau orang seperti apa anda ini. dan saya tidak ingin berurusan dengan anda lagi. dan saya rasa juga anda tidak tertarik untuk mengetahui kebenarannya karena anda takut disalahkan. anda takut malu. jadi saya juga sama sekali tidak tertarik untuk menjelaskan apa-apa langsung dengan anda karena cuma akan buang-buang waktu. lebih baik saya terus melihat kedepan dan melanjutkan hidup saya, bukan? daripada berurusan dengan hal yang konyol dan terlalu kekanak-kanakan.

dan buat yang tidak tau apa-apa bahkan tidak mengenal saya, lebih baik anda stay in silent. ga usah ikut angkat bicara atau berlagak seperti pahlawan kesiangan atau ikut menghakimi saya. anda yang seharusnya urus hidup anda sendiri. tidak perlu ikut-ikutan seperti itu. :)

mari menjadi orang yang lebih dewasa dalam berfikir dan bertindak! jangan terus-terusan seperti anak kecil dan bertindak seperti orang yang tidak berpendidikan lagi. sejalankan pikiran dan jiwa anda. hidup itu bukan hanya sekedar masalah yang konyol seperti ini.  MOVE ON and GET YOUR OWN LIFE!

*maaf sebelumnya i use them buat barang bukti atas sandiwara yang anda buat..

 

a daddy's little girl has grown up

that morning, unlike the usual morning it used to be.
that morning, my daddy took me to the campus.
i usually go there by myself.
in a hurry, i'm getting ready in the car.
brought my make-up thingies and so on.
unrealized, my daddy noticed me when i was getting ready.
too busy flatten my daily cream and powder tools, neat the eyelash then applying mascara and at last gave a little touch of lip cream on my lips.
my father suddenly said, "my daughter now has become a real woman."
i bowed down silent, looking at my nails color.
in my heart i said, "yes, i am not a little girl you used to be. i've grown up."

life is fully of surprise

kita kadang ga pernah tau harus berapa kali mengalami kegagalan sampai akhirnya kita bisa tersadar kemudian bangkit dan membangun hidup kita kembali. semua hal tentang kehidupan. pendidikan, pekerjaan, keluarga, teman bahkan kehidupan percintaan. to be realistic. that's who i am now. call me a realistic. terimakasih buat Allah yang uda kasih semua jalan sampai akhirnya saya menjadi saya yang sekarang. saya harus mengalami kegagalan dua kali setelah saya terakhir kali benar-benar pacaran. yaaaa, setelah yang terakhir menjalani sebuah hubungan selama 1 tahun lebih, saya sudah mencoba dua kali dan berakhir dengan gagal hanya bertahan dalam hitungan hari. what a life! and for both, i made the decision to end it. dua kegagalan yg menurut saya sangat-sangatlah tidak perlu terjadi karena saya ingin berusaha melupakan. tapi akhirnya saya menyerah.

pengalaman adalah guru yang berharga. menyadari kesalahan saya dan segala yang sudah terjadi dan mengingat bukan waktunya lagi bagi saya untuk hanya sekedar mencari pacar dan pacaran. buat apa pacaran kalau akhirnya putus juga? saya bukan anak sma lagi. saya calon lulusan S1 yang akan segera melanjutkan S2 kemudian bekerja lalu mencari kehidupan yang benar-benar kehidupan nyata. perbanyak teman, itu kuncinya. nikmati hidup, itu jalannya.

sekarang... saya sangat menikmati kehidupan saya. semua hal dalam kehidupan saya. semua sudah saya tata, dan akan indah pada waktunya :) Allah telah menyiapkan jodoh untuk kita masing-masing. Allah maha adil. dan untuk setiap penantian yg sabar dan ikhlas, pasti akan mendapat balasan yang pantas pula. Amin.

thank you...

you take care of my mother as if she is your mother too...
we had lunch together as if my mother had a lunch with her daughter and her son...
you make my mother feel likes she has a son...
and for all, thank you :) :) :) :) :) :)

!

put your hands way up if you're already watched Hello Stranger and you didn't love this guy! love you, Chantavit Dhanasevi ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

get a life, Lieya!

ooooohh you're such a girl who can't be moved!
come on, Lieya?
you have to forget all the things about him...
even i've been built another relationship twice, he always there in the corner of my mind and heart...
mau sampe kapan?
he's not your future!
be realistic!
and remember to let him happy...

as long as he's happy, i'll happy too...
just that simple ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
good luck, SWSN...

hey!

oooh how i miss you...
mmmm doesn't matter, just tought!

you and me

it's you and me only for two weeks

from August 4th 2010 until August 21st 2010 before finally God showed me the truth

i wish i could forgive, forget and not regret it

AMIN

DIAM

diam.

diam.

diam.

diam.

diam.

diam.

diam.

diam.

diam.

saat mereka mencaci, dia hanya diam dan menyunggingkan senyum di wajahnya.

saat mereka mencaci, dia hanya diam dan berpura-pura tidak mendengarkan sesuatu.

saat mereka marah padanya, dia hanya diam tanpa bisa membuat pembelaan.

saat dia dianiaya, dia hanya diam di dalam kepasrahan.

saat dia disakiti, dia hanya diam di dalam tangisan.

diam.

diam.

diam.

diam.

diam.

diam.

diam.

diam.

how stupid she is!

i can’t keep drowning for you.

You were it, my first love, I think the closest I’ve ever come. We weren’t perfect for each other, we were exact opposites, and we fought constantly. But you made me so insanely happy, and vice versa. I know I did, from your smile down to your demands for hugs in the morning. We didn’t last long. I got too close and you took off, taking my heart with you.

I spent months trying to recover, trying desperately to recover. At first, falling in love with you, it felt like I was drowning, but the water was warm so it almost felt luxurious, enjoyable, like moving through warm honey. But then, you left, and it was like the water turned to ice and lungs started to jam up and I couldn't breathe. I was struggling, kicking, failing to get to the top, because my heart felt dead. My limbs felt frozen in place, and I have no clue how I reached the surface. But I did, and the first breath I took was so painful, and the second, and the third. Eventually, I could hold myself up but I was still shivering for a while, even after I dragged myself out of that water. I spent 6 months, trying desperately to pull myself up, I was frozen all over.


I can’t keep drowning for you.

S.W.S.N

you are my breathtaker

its been two years since you asked for a relationship. i still remember that day. that was a pretty memorable day. and now, everytime i heard about you my heart seems stop beating. oh God, he still the one ;( sometimes i tired to preteding that i would be fine. i'lll just forget him. but i just can't. he still my breathtaker. i'm still wishing and hoping. i'm still loving him in a silence. because in silence i found no rejection. no one owns him, but me.

could i?

hate to saying this! mmmm, terribly missed you! i just can't get you out of my mind! how can i move on? we've been apart. we've never been met each other for long time. we've no talked. there is no communication between us, but i just can't forget you. it's still you!!!

COULDN'T I JUST HEAR YOUR VOICE JUST FOR A MOMENT TO FIX MY SILLY-THINGY? i need you ;(

~BIMBANG~

Pertama kali aku tergugah
Dalam setiap kata yang kau ucap
Bila malam tlah datang
Terkadang ingin ku tulis semua perasaan

Kata orang rindu itu indah
Namun bagiku ini menyiksa
Sejenak ku fikirkan untuk ku benci saja dirimu
Namun sulit ku membenci

Pejamkan mata bila kuingin bernafas lega
Dalam anganku aku berada disatu
Persimpangan jalan yang sulit kupilih

Ku peluk semua indah hidupku
Hikmah yang ku rasa sangat tulus
Ada dan tiada cinta bagiku tak mengapa
Namun ada yang hilang separuh
Diriku

~swsn~

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aaaaaaaaarrrrrrggggggghhhhh! astaghfirullaaaaaah. kangen banget! ;(

17 LAGU MYMP

4 KOPI AROMA

8 BATAGOR ABUY

single, happy, free, lovely and sexy ♥

what an awesome today! yaaah posting kali ini isinya kegiatan menakjubkan yang gw lakuin hari ini, 12 April 2010. sebelumnya mau ikut mengenang 2 tahun meninggalnya kakek dari Shendy Wilandria Syofrinaldy Noer. semoga arwahnya tenang di alam yang berbeda dengan kita. amien :)

well well well, uda dari kapan taun emang pengen pengen pengen pengen banget berkunjung ke bioskop buat nonton! uda lama banget rasa-rasanya gg nonton di bioskop. paling banter juga nonton di dvd dan nonton sinetron yang di RCTI karena mama minta temenin nonton. fyi, gw jadi suka nonton sinetron Dia Bukan Anakku! WTH! hahahaha.

dan sabtu kemaren, gw sempet mengajukan keinginan gw buat nonton di bioskop ke bokap gw. tapi karena ada satu dan lain hal, gw gg bisa nonton di bioskop. dan gw akhirnya bertekad, apapun keadaaannya, gw harus secepatnya nonton Clash of The Titans sama How to Train Your Dragon meskipun harus nonton sendirian! WTH? ALONE? yes, ALONE!

niatnya, gw mau ke kampus dulu pagi ini buat beli tiket Kampung Jazz dan ketemu Rahmadya Fadaya Putri buat tugas Manajemen Lintas Budaya, yaaah tapi apa daya karena mager tingkat dewa dewi di langit dan di bumi, akhirnya gw baru beranjak buat mandi jam setengah 11. tadinya sempet ngajakin Runi sama Dita, tapi apadaya mereka gg bisa hari ini. dan karena tekad gw yang udah bulet dengan apapun yang terjadi gw harus nonton, maka gw nontonlah SENDIRIAN! AUTIS? no no no, bukan autis yaa namanya. tapi gw emang tipe orang yang kl uda pengen banget sama sesuatu, bakal gw usahain sebisa gw apapun caranya buat gw dapetin! yaah, gw emang orang yang punya ambisi! menurut gw, ambisi itu penting dalam hidup gw!

dan dengan mengendarai si Bluwie, akhirnya gw sampe di Cihampelas Walk jam 13.05 padahal film dimulai pukul 13.00. hey, gw belum beli tiket looh! dan pas di loket, ada bapak-bapak yang lamaaa banget. dan gw mulai khawatir waktu orang-orang mulai berdatangan buat ngantri beli tiket. padahal waktu gw sampe di loket, cuma ada gw dan si bapak-bapak. well, gw khawatir karena tanggepan orang. hell-noooo, otomatis mereka bakal tau dong yaa kalo gw beli tiket nonton Clash of The Titans cuma satu. dan apa kata mereka kl gw nonton sendirian? WTH! gw gg mau dikira menyedihkan atau kasihan! please, gw cuma mau nonton. hahaha. padahal belum tentu juga mereka bakal mikirin itu. dan dengan tidak mempedulikan pikiran-pikiran orang, akhirnya gw beli tiket Clash of The Titans dan langsung masuk ke dalem studio.

di dalem studio, dengan ditemani smsan sama runi, gw pun nonton tuh film sampe beres. awesome! dan sebelum lampu dinyalain, gw uda ngeloyor keluar teater. hahahaha. beres dari nonton, langsung meluncur ke musholla buat shalat, sekalian ke yogya buat nyari kopi aroma. mmmmm, dan ternyata gg ada dan berkat informasi dari meydi, meluncurlah gw ke riau junction buat ngedapetin 2 mocca arabica dan 2 robusta ala kopi aroma. beres dari riau junction, melucur lagi ke balubur buat beli cd kosong yang nantinya bakal gw isi dengan 17 lagu MYMP. dan berencana hari jumat bakal beli 8 batagor abuy buat dikasihin ke seseorang hari sabtunya.

apapuuun, ini postingan emang lagi gg karuan. hahaha.
hanya teringat dengan prinsip lama seseorang untuk, "menikmati hidup". dan saya sedang menikmati hidup saya yang sekarang :) whatever, i'm single, happy, free, lovely and sexy! hahahaha.

God, what's going on with me?

kenapa sih gw? ada apa dengan gw? lebay kah? apa kah?
tapi hari ini perasaan gw lagi gg enak banget. gg karuan.
kenapa deh?
cuma karena nelly gg bales sms, telvon gg diangkat, gw uda cemas.
tau nyokap dari sahabat gw lagi sakit, dan sahabat gw kayaknya uda kecapean disana dan gw belum sempet nengok, gw jadi sedih dan malah pengen nangis.
tiba-tiba dapet sms kalo nyokap cristy lagi pendarahan otak, butuh dana yang besar, gw jadi sedih, dan pengen nangis.
pas gw lagi butuh shendy buat nenangin gw yg lagi gg karuan, dia entah dimana gg tau lah sms pending bodo amat.
dan akhirnya gw meneteskan air mata. entah air mata apa itu artinya. yang jelas gw sedih. ikut sedih. lebay yaaa?
tapi itu yang gw alami sekarang. air matanya netes gitu aja tanpa alasan.
gw terlalu cengeng kah?
gw terlalu lemah kah?
apapuuuuuuun ya Allah, gw sayaaaang banget sama semua orang yang ada di sekitar gw.
kasih kebahagiaan buat semua orang yang ada di sekitar gw ya Allah.

AMIEN

Jung Yong Hwa

Jung Yong Hwa, kamu ganteng sekaliii! hahahaha. sumpah niiih gara-gara adek gw yang bawa dvd drama korea you're beautiful, gw ampe kemimpi-mimpi =))

yes, you are!

past is past

Pernah gg sih lo ngerasa kalo seseorang itu sempurna di mata lo?

Here’s the story….

Rabu, 7 April 2010.

Pagi ini dimulai dengan gg enak banget. Terbangun dari tidur jam 2 pagi karena mimpi buruk dan ngerasa desperado banget karena adzan shubuh masih lama.

Dulu, tiap mimpi buruk pasti selalu bangunin seseorang buat nenangin gw akibat dari mimpi buruk. Sempet kepikiran buat nelvon dan minta tenangin sama orang yang sama, tapi ego gw bilang TIDAK. So, gw berusaha dengan keras buat tidur lagi dengan baca-baca doa tapi nyatanya gg berhasil. Akhirnya karena udah mentok, gw nyalain Sophie. Beruntung Andita Handayani (Dita) masih online di messenger. Dan tanpa ragu langsung nyapa dan cerita-cerita ngalor ngidul sambil ngedownload lagu Paramore yang judulnya The Only Exception sampe akhirnya kita pun mutusin buat tidur. Dan dengan ditemani lullaby dari Paramore – The Only Exception, gw akhirnya bisa tidur lagi sampe shubuh.

Terbangun lagi waktu papa ngetok pintu buat ngebangunin dan nitip pesan buat ngambil mobil di kantor sekalian jemput dedek. Hey hey, gw masih kuliah looh. Tapi emang kebetulan lagi pekan UTS dan kebetulan lagi gg dapet kebagian jadwal UTS, sehingga hari ini dinyatakan LIBUR. Yaaa walaupun bukan bener-bener libur karena gw masih harus ngerjain tugas kelompok mata kuliah Seminar Manajemen Stratejik di rumah bareng Swasti Sri Harjanti (Swa) dan Rinaldi Fachri Putra (Fachri). Sambil nunggu jam 12 buat ngerjain tugas bareng, gw habisin waktu gw di depan Sophie buat twitteran dan chatting.

Ngerjain ni tugas yang gg beres-beres emang ngeselin. Dan seharian ini brain storming tentang perusahaan yang kita tuju pun dimulai sampe akhirnya bikin strategi diselingi sesi curhat sampe tuker gosip. Yeah, i missed those guys so bad. Kayak uda lama gg banyak cerita-cerita bareng dan ngegosip bareng. Kita emang satu jurusan, tapi kita beda konsentrasi kecuali gw sama Fachri. Gw sama Fachri ngambil konsentrasi Pemasaran, sedangkan Swa ngambil Keuangan.

Sampe gg kerasa waktu uda sore dan gw harus pergi buat jemput adek gw. Ditemani dengan rintik-rintik sisa hujan dari tadi siang, gw naik motor dibonceng Fachri buat ke kantor dan ngambil mobil. Hey, udah lama banget gw gg naek motor. Udah lupa kapan terakhir kali gw naik motor. Hahaha. Sepanjang perjalanan tetep diselingi dengan sesi cerita-cerita dan kecipratan air karena jalanan becek.

Memasuki jalan supratman, dan disanalah cerita berakhir karena tandanya gw harus pindah ke mobil dan jemput adek gw di tempat lesnya. Sepanjang perjalananan menuju tempat makan, gw dan adek gw kembali bertukar cerita. Dan akhirnya setelah sekian lama gw sembunyiin cerita ini dari keluarga gw, gw pun ceritain cerita yang gw sembunyiin ini ke adek gw. Well, cerita yang gg akan gw umbar juga disini karena cukup cerita jelasnya hanya gw dan orang-orang terdekat gw yang tau. Thank to Shendy Wilandria Syofrinaldy Noer, Moh. Walensatama, Nelly Wulansari, Runi Graviani Puspitasari, Raissa Bellana MahaPutri, Andita Handayani, Trisha Gilang Saraswati, Rinaldi Fachri Putra, Swasti Sri Harjanti dan terakhir Mariana Nurlela for making me feel so much better.

Dan entah bagaimana alurnya sampai akhirnya gw dan adek gw menyadari satu kesamaan. Well, bukan gw sih yang mulai ngebahas masalah ini. Adek gw pernah punya seseorang yang yaah sampe saat ini dia gg bias lupain walaupun dia uda nyoba beberapa kali ngejalanin sama orang lain. Dan akhirnya selalu dia masih inget sama orang itu. Begitupun gw, gw udah pernah nyoba ngejalanin sesuatu sama orang lain, dan yaaaah menurut gw, someone in my past is better. Well, for me, he could deserve me well. He’s not handsome, he’s not too smart, he’s not rich, but he could make me feel i’m the one. For me, he’s perfect. He’s the one i really need.

Dan ternyata bukan gw aja yang pernah ngerasain hal itu sama seseorang, my sister does too.
Wherever we walk to another ways, we would back to the same place. Is it a first love? Do you believe that first love never dies? He’s not the third, but he’s my first love. With him, i know how love is. With him, i understand what love is. With him, i can feel both happiness and sadness.

But however, past is past.

PRAY

God, you're the one who knows everything i really need and want in this world.

then, i just wanna ask you to gimme the best.

amien.

1 year and 146 days

 

1 YEAR AND 146 DAYS

 

1 year and 146 days, the time is passing by

nothing in this world can be as nice as you and i
and how could we break up like this?

and how could we be wrong?

so many months, so many days and i still sing my song
 

now i run to you like i always dow

when i close my eyes i think of you

such a lonely girls

such a lonely world
when i close my eyes i dream

i return to you like i always do
when i close my eyes i think of you
such a lonely girl
such a lonely world
when i close my eyes i dream of you
 

1 year and 146 days, now just look at me
am i the girl i use to be?
so damn what do you see?
and how could we break up like this?
and how could we be wrong?
so many years, so many days and i still sing my song

now i run to you like i always do
when i close my eyes i think of you
such a lonely girl
such a lonely world
when i close my eyes i dream

i return to you like i always do
when i close my eyes i think of you
such a lonely girl
such a lonely world
when i close my eyes i dream of you

~attributed for 170408~ 

*inspired by Taylor Swift, i just changed the year and the days (: and there it is.

MY NAME IS LIEYA
AND I'M NOT A PLAYER!

secret admirer

sounds crazy but hell-yeah, i had ever almost feeling you, someone i called my secret admirer. it's EVER! now, it's really gone.

SECRET ADMIRER

i remembered it's a long rain season.

i was in my room, sitting all alone, my PC standing in front of me.

you're one of the them who appear on it.

and oooh i know you since i was in high school.

rainy day, it's a cold day.

tears are everywhere.

you're the one who brought back a smile on my face.

i remembered it's a long cold night.

we had a silly conversation over the unreal world.

you made me write down my phone number.

and then oooh you save it into your phone.

rainy day, it's a cold day.

tears are everywhere.

you're the one who brought back a smile on my face.

you made me feel something i didn't know what.

but all i realized is it's really unreal.

sounds like crazy and it's kinda a fairytale.

when i almost feeling you, then you go.

rainy day, it's a cold day.

tears are everywhere.

you're the one who brought back a smile on my face.

and now, i have to forget all the things about you.

you're just my imagination in the corner of my mind.

gotta have to move on. move on.

and for the last i have to say goodbye, my secret admirer.

~PrincipessaGrigio~

i'm your karma

have you ever meet a player? have ever know when a player got their turn? here it is a song made by me for and underground player i ever met. hey, who the hell you think who you are? you ever thought that i'm crazy about you? you're wrong!

I'M YOUR KARMA

 

first, i ain't interested on you.

second, i have no feeling on you.

third, i don't care with you.

fourth, hey what a pity you are!

then called me that i'm your karma.

really know you're my bestfriend's bestfriend.

and you're my friends' friend.

and also my friend's ex-boyfriend.

you thought i'm a stupid girl who could believe on you?

you're wrong cause yes i'm a smart one.

first, i ain't interested on you.

second, i have no feeling on you.

third, i don't care with you.

fourth, hey what a pity you are!

then called me that i'm your karma. 

you yelled at me that i'm a player.

but you brought two flowers,

for two different girl at the same day.

hell-ooh should i bring an extrabig mirror on your face?

i'm not a player cause yes it's you.

first, i ain't interested on you.

second, i have no feeling on you.

third, i don't care with you.

fourth, hey what a pity you are!

then called me that i'm your karma.

i didn't have meant to hurt you.

you should be hurted.

but you're pretending that you're a strong guy.

hey, you're a guy? i thought you're a gay!

so i'm laughing on it!

just called me that i'm your karma.

first, i ain't interested on you.

second, i have no feeling on you.

third, i don't care with you.

fourth, hey what a pity you are!

then called me that i'm your karma.

realized it, i know who the hell you are,

from your relationship's track record.

and now, it's my turn to be your karma.

yes, i'm your karma.

~PrincipessaGrigio~

you complete my life

i wrote this first lyric for my beautiful lovely ex-boyfriend when the storm meet us. i just can saved it on my mind without a melody. now, i'm gonna write it down too. this song is for you, Shendy Wilandria Syofrinaldy Noer.
i really need someone to make it into a beautiful song ;(

-YOU COMPLETE MY LIFE-

it was valentine's day afternoon.

the story finally began.

smile, laugh and blush fully my day.

then when i first met you, i had a different sign.

i didn't know what sign but all i know it's right.

hey.. mister, you complete my life.

i know you're the one i've been waiting for.

i never felt that much just like the way i do for you.

i don't have any space in my heart cause it's full of you.

it was thursday night when you said that you love me.

you know what? my heart beating so hard.

that's why i'm silent, cause i'm very happy.

and i didn't know how to expressed it well.

hey.. mister, you complete my life.

i know you're the one i've been waiting for.

i never felt that much just like the way i do for you.

i don't have any space in my heart cause it's full of you.

yeah, i love you just like in a fairytale.

when i'm with you, i feel like a princess and you're my prince.

i dreamed about a happy ending story about us.

you make me feel so alive.

and i believed it gonna be happened someday.

hey.. mister, you complete my life.

i know you're the one i've been waiting for.

i never felt that much just like the way i do for you.

i don't have any space in my heart cause it's full of you.

now, we're just in a storm.

don't you see i still could dance in this storm?

cause i have faith on us.

on us.

hey.. mister, you complete my life.

i know you're the one i've been waiting for.

i never felt that much just like the way i do for you.

i don't have any space in my heart cause it's full of you.

yeah, i don't have any space in my heart cause it's full of you.

cause you're the one who complete my life.

~PrincipessaGrigio~

i like you but just as a friend.

for the first time, i'm trying to write down a song in this blog. i have some lyric for my beatiful lovely ex-boyfriend but i didn't write it down on my blog yet but i'll do it later. i don't have it's melody yet and i really hope someone could help me to compose a beautiful melody for this lyric. if you read this, and thinking of someone who could help me, just call me :) this song's title is, "I LIKE YOU BUT JUST AS A FRIEND"

you're almost perfect.

you came into my life in the right time.

almost perfect just like what i want, honestly.

you're kind.

you're smart.

and you're good looking.

you're on my type.

you gave me your time.

you gave me your attention.

you gave me your care.

but this heart just can feel nothing.

but time has changed.

sometimes you were there.

and sometimes you disappeared.

i know, i'm the one who made that condition happened.

and i thought you took your back step out from me.

you gave me your time.

you gave me your attention.

you gave your care.

but this heart just can feel nothing.

woooo, i was wrong.

you acted like that to show me that you gave me some spaces.

i have different thought with you.

you said that you want me.

you said that you love me.

you gave the most beautiful bracelet i ever dream.

that bracelet name is "loving you".

but i'm so sorry, i can't have it.

you gave me your time.

you gave me your attention.

you gave me your care.

but this heart just can feel nothing.

hey, i like you but just as a friend.

so sorry to say the truth, i really just don't feel anything.

~PrincipessaGrigio~

BE MATURE, PLEASE!

terlalu mudah untuk mendapatkan seseorang, tapi untuk mendapatkan orang yang kita sayangi dan dengan tulus menyayangi kita sangatlah sulit

tulus itu tidak pamrih. tidak mengharapkan balasan.
tulus itu menerima. tidak bermuka dua.
mengapa harus memaksakan perasaan orang lain?
hey, saya sudah mencoba.
saya sudah membuka hati.
saya sudah memberikan kesempatan itu.
tapi kamu tidak dapat memanfaatkan kesempatan itu dengan baik.
jadi lebih baik saya akhiri.
saya selalu bertanya, "kenapa saya?"
tapi kamu tidak dapat memberikan jawaban yang membuat saya yakin.
hey, apa yang kamu cari?
baiklah, memang saya tidak sepenuhnya benar. tidak sepenuhnya juga salah karena sama punya pembelaan terhadap pilihan yang saya lakukan.
begitupun dengan kamu.
sekarang saya begitu mudahnya mengambil keputusan.
saya tidak menyesali keputusan yang telah saya ambil.
karena sekarang saya tau bagaimana kamu sebenarnya.
tidak dapet menerima keputusan dengan lapang dada.
buat apa kamu sakit hati? saya jujur, saya tidak mencurangi kamu.
kamu boleh kecewa, tapi buat apa marah dan memasang bendera permusuhan?
mengapa menjadi orang yang berbeda? bukankah sudah jelas saya mengibarkan bendera persahabatan dan kedamaian?
hey, kamu sudah besar. dewasalaah.
jangan seperti anak kecil. saya sedang tidak mencari musuh, saya mencari persahabatan.
saya mengaku salah karena saya memberikan harapan kosong. saya minta maav.
saya tau cara saya salah saat mengakhirinya. saya minta maav.
tapi jika akhirnya seperti ini, saya sangat menyesal telah memberikan kesempatan itu.
dewasalah, teman.

SECRET ADMIRER!

herbal mint

i got the essence!

for the first time, i spend it.

there is no one who can stop me for this time.

once and for all.

please stop haunting me through my dreams!

it's killing me inside when i sleep at night and you come to haunting on me through my dreams. can't you just get off from my mind?
happy for previous two days i can sleep tight. thank to another you :) but when another you disappear, you come back to haunting me on my dreams! eeerrrgggghhhh! i need to stop it. i don't wanna come back to every laugh we've spent together in my past.
you've just had your new life. i need to move on but why you always there in the corner of my mind? ggggrrrrrrr.

BUTTERFLY

feel like i'm a butterfly.

i have a fragile heart like the wings of a butterfly.

i'm free as a butterfly dancing above the flowers.

i'm beautiful outside but fragile inside.

it's too easy too catch me.

i make changes from time to time as i did metamorphosis.

it's a thank you for made me feel better than before, so i can sleep tight last night :)

all i need is a smile, a joke, a laugh to make me feel better. don't have to know what's going on with me. don't have to know who the hell i'm inside. just look at me as you saw me outside. it's me in my shadow of happiness.
it's a thank you for made me feel better than before, so i can sleep tight last night :)

i pretend to be okay and i keep a smile on my face, but inside i'm dying.

finally after the last time crying in the early months of January, i'm crying again now. i'm tired. i'm tired of being a shadow of something that is not me. to pretend that everything around me fine. but apparently not! all fake! i live in a falsehood that i created myself as a false image of myself.

i'm tired of trying to accept everything that is around me. i'm tired of saying "yes" when i want to say "no". i'm tired of smiling in front of the crowd when my heart cried out in pain.

in fact, even though i smile and look happy even really happy, there was one side at the corner of me that most hidden, i'm sad, i cry, i hurt, i was disappointed, and i'm tired.

femmedrenaline

i'm really enjoying my life :) there are more and more happiness each day. thank you for being around, girls. xoxo