secret admirer

sounds crazy but hell-yeah, i had ever almost feeling you, someone i called my secret admirer. it's EVER! now, it's really gone.

SECRET ADMIRER

i remembered it's a long rain season.

i was in my room, sitting all alone, my PC standing in front of me.

you're one of the them who appear on it.

and oooh i know you since i was in high school.

rainy day, it's a cold day.

tears are everywhere.

you're the one who brought back a smile on my face.

i remembered it's a long cold night.

we had a silly conversation over the unreal world.

you made me write down my phone number.

and then oooh you save it into your phone.

rainy day, it's a cold day.

tears are everywhere.

you're the one who brought back a smile on my face.

you made me feel something i didn't know what.

but all i realized is it's really unreal.

sounds like crazy and it's kinda a fairytale.

when i almost feeling you, then you go.

rainy day, it's a cold day.

tears are everywhere.

you're the one who brought back a smile on my face.

and now, i have to forget all the things about you.

you're just my imagination in the corner of my mind.

gotta have to move on. move on.

and for the last i have to say goodbye, my secret admirer.

~PrincipessaGrigio~

SECRET ADMIRER!

it's a thank you for made me feel better than before, so i can sleep tight last night :)

all i need is a smile, a joke, a laugh to make me feel better. don't have to know what's going on with me. don't have to know who the hell i'm inside. just look at me as you saw me outside. it's me in my shadow of happiness.
it's a thank you for made me feel better than before, so i can sleep tight last night :)

falling for someone who is so desperately out of reach

UNTOUCHABLE by Taylor Swift

untouchable like a distant diamond sky
i'm reaching out and i just can't tell you why

i'm caught up in you
i'm caught up in you

untouchable
burning brighter than the sun
and when you're close i feel like coming undone

in the middle of the night
when i'm in this dream
it's like a million little stars
spelling out your name
you gotta come on, come on
say that we'll be together
come on, come on
little taste of heaven

it's half full and i won't wait here all day

i know you're saying that you'll be here anyway

but you're untouchable
burning brighter than the sun
now that you're close i feel like coming undone

in the middle of the night
when i'm in this dream
it's like a million little stars
spelling out your name
you gotta come on, come on
say that we'll be together
come on, come on
oh

in the middle of the night
we could form this dream

i wanna feel you by my side
standing next to me
you gotta come on, come on
say that we'll be together
come on, come on
little taste of heaven

oh, oh
i'm caught up in you
oh, oh, oh

untouchable
burning brighter than the sun
and when you're close i feel like coming undone

in the middle of the night
when i'm in this dream
it's like a million little stars
spelling out your name
you gotta come on, come on
say that we'll be together
come on, come on
oh, oh

in the middle of the night
when i'm in this dream
It’s like a million little stars
spelling out your name
you gotta come on, come on
say that we'll be together
come on, come on
little taste of heaven

where are you? what are you doing? zzzzzz.

 



IF YOU REALLY WANT ME, THEN DO SOMETHING TO CATCH ME NOW!





 

GIVE UP!

When You Love Someone by Endah N Rhesa :)

i love you but it's not so easy to make you here with me

i wanna touch and hold you forever
but you're still in my dream
and i can't stand to wait ‘till nite is coming to my life
but i still have a time to break a silence
when you love someone
just be brave to say that you want him to be with you
when you hold your love
don't ever let it go
or you will loose your chance
to make your dreams come true...
 

i used to hide and watch you from a distance and i knew you realized

i was looking for a time to get closer at least to say... “hello”
and i can't stand to wait your love is coming to my life
when you love someone
just be brave to say that you want him to be with you
when you hold your love
don't ever let it go
or you will loose your chance
to make your dreams come true...

and i never thought that i'm so strong

i stuck on you and wait so long
but when love comes it can't be wrong
don't ever give up just try and try to get what you want
cause love will find the way....
when you love someone
just be brave to say that you want him to be with you
when you hold your love
don't ever let it go
or you will loose your chance
to make your dreams come true...

change

why i put "change" as my title of my post now? this is the reason why.


i changed my blogger layout into a simplier one.
i changed my blogger song with you belong with me by taylor swift.
everything in my life was changed and i do love it :)

why i changed my blogger layout and song? the reason is my heart was changing. i don't know, but i do feel in love with my unreal friend. we knowned each other since we're in senior high school. agree that love is BLIND. hahahaha.
this blog is about my heart, and my heart box was changing into a new one.
it's up and down just like a rollercoaster. sometimes he's there and sometimes he's not there. and all i can do just wondering where are you, my MR. UNREAL?
i'm laughing for this thing seriously, cause i thought it just kind of a BLIND LOVE. and the question is, am i really in love with someone and something unreal and uncertain? i'm playing with illusion, hallucination or whatever we named it.
this is what my heart says.....it's whispering sometimes screaming a question, "am i really in love?"

smile smile smile smile smile :)

first of all, thank Nelly Wulansari for the support. yeah, u're right this is "Heart Box of Lieya", so i can write anything i'm gonna write here no matter what :)

my life getting brighter now :) thank you for all love from everybody around. love y'all and i don't wanna lost it or changed it to something uncertain anymore.

thank for the laugh and for the smile everytime u're around in my unreal world.
even we known each other since long time ago, we both still live in undefined world.
that's what i called unreal world before. everytime you text me, everytime you reply my text and everytime we keep in touch in unreal world, a smile will hanging in my face even you don't ever know it. i don't know, maybe i was wrong translated all the thing that happened between us. cause for me, it's still unreal. yeah, UNREAL. you or me and us never make it real. we both seem likes waiting waiting and waiting till one of us move first. nobody gonna start it. and all i can do just waiting and waiting till you miss me.
when i text you, it means i miss you. when i don't, it means i'm waiting for you to miss me.
and now, i'm waiting for your text.
mmmm, maybe it's crazy. but i do need you to make me smile, to make me laugh honestly :) keep the smile on my face :) :) :) :) :) thank you for every laugh, every smile you made on my face and a spoonful of happiness you bring, MR. UNREAL.