happy new year!

almost forget this thing! HAPPY NEW YEAR! let's make a new life. happy for being around you all to start this year and life.
its 2010 and i love the number of 10. semoga tahun ini jadi tahun yang lebih baik dari tahun-tahun sebelumnya buat gw. amien amien amien.
terima kasih buat semua orang yang uda ngisi tahun-tahun gw dari tahun 89 sampe sekarang :) terima kasih buat Allah yang masih ngasih kesempatan buat gw nafas sampe detik ini. terima kasih buat pelajaran hidup yang uda dikasih ke gw. terima kasih buat orang-orang di sekitar gw, khususnya nyokap gw yang uda bantu gw jadi orang yang lebih baik dan uda kasih semangat, selalu ngasih maav dan kesempatan dan semua-muanya yang gw butuhin. i really love you however mom even i don't know how to show it.
let's start a new book and close the old book. let's write a new story and save the old story. really happy with my new life. there is no pain, there is no tear only happiness and smile :) love love love.

10-01-10

it's 10-01-10! happy for you, my besties Anita Dwihardini Putri with her couple David Wicaksono. really happy for you both. best wishes. cuuuppss cuuuppssss :*

happy for you all

ikut bahagia buat Anita Dwihardini Putri, Nelly Wulansari dan Runi Graviani Puspitasari yang akhirnya uda settled! hahahahaha. happy for you, girls! ditunggu primbonnya, dan tidak lupa kl uda dapet primbonnya, traktiran yaaa. dan kalian meninggalkan aku JOMBLO sendirian. gpp deh, being a single itu bukan takdir kok. tapi PILIHAN. kalian sibuk dengan eehhmm nya masing-masing, gw masih sibuk dengan PILIHAN. masih sibuk memperbaiki diri sendiri, and thanks God i'm progressing each day. bahagia dengan hidup yang sekarang. lebih tenang, lebih santai, udah bisa ikhlas, dan yakin ini yang terbaik.

finally it's a new life

finally the pain has gone. thanks God for taking this pain. thanks mom for always forgives me. thanks for my besties for always be there for me and help me. thanks for all. terimakasih shendy buat pelajaran hidup yang berharga. terima kasih mama yang uda ngebantu banyak banget nasehat dan semangat dan segala upaya sampe akhirnya aku uda tenang, gg nyimpen perasaan sakit dan benci lagi di hati. it's time for me to move on, right? i have to go go go to the front, i don't have to go back or look back. this is the end and the new beginning. welcome, my new life. xoxo.

S

you are my inspiration. you are one of the biggest power in my life after my God and my family. you are the smile in my eyes. you are the reason why i'm crying a lot. the truth is i don't really want you but i really need you to make me feel better as always. i've been try by myself but my heart always wishpering your name. it needs you. it miss you terribly much. and it's really hurt. it's really fine to be OVER, but now i can't lie to myself that all i really need now is you can be always be there accompany me till this pain gone. i don't need anyone. you make the pain and the only person who can make the pain gone is you. even we'll never be together anymore as you wish. i'll try for it, but i want you to help me erase this pain as soon, S. don't mad at me, just smile at me and gimme the signal of the power from your smile.